bleed

thurs night he cored me
and we're back together once again
now its reali over. gone.
since ytd. our 1 month aniversary
tis feelin is different frm my past
in e past. i wud feel like shoutin -wo shi lian ler-
cryin all over and go crazie
now. i dun feel like shoutin
i dun feel like cryin
e onli feelin i can describe is
havin hundreds of elephants stompin on ma hart
so suffocatin yet still alive
its not veri pain. its veri xinku
i cant lie.
i'm waitin for him to ask for patch
although i duno if i wud
duno tis pain wud last how long
i miss him
miss his smell; his hug; his everitin
all tis fei hua?
why am i feelin so calm
its not like me
i shud hab vent all ma emotions
wads rong wif me

g u e s s i n e e d e u u b a b i