shi shi de zhen xiang

hab been watch winter sonata lately. but its reali strange. thruout the show. i never shed a tear at all. its not tt the show isnt touching. but i jus dunno why. i reali enjoy watchin and cryin in the past. but why cant i cry le. like dat not enjoy le lohx. perhaps watch drama is an excuse for me to cry hard. but why cant i even cry now? hab i becum cold blooded? wo bu yao zhe yang.. i used to cry so badly till my eyes get swollen when i watch dramas. where hab all the tears gone?


todae afternoon get to chat wif Joyce. i realised when i was wif ivan. he didnt told joyce he was attached. joyce tot he was single all along. we used to tok on fone everi night except fri and sat. cuz fri night we'll see each other during chiong. and everi sat we'll go out. and joyce told me tt dey alwaes tok on the fone during fri. after we broke few daes later. dey jiu together le. after learning so mani stuffs. i felt betrayed. perhaps its not a big deal. but i jus felt two-timed? he's such a flirt. why is he able to be wif me while the other side showin feelins to others? when i was wif him. i saw a testimonial joyce gave him. on 17th sept. which was my burfdae. she was askin if ivan's angry and why he din cor her. i shud hab known right? such a fool? i trusted him so much although he mixes around wif alot of gers. yet i get betrayed. does it mean tt guys are jerks? hhahax. f the world has an increasing number of lesbians or bisexual. its all guy's fault. i've tried. i know.


am i so unattractive? so unprettie? so desperate? so open? so stupid? i realise i'm horrible. my thinkin is alwaes different from others. wads wrong wif me. sumtimes i feel like a whore. sorie for the crude word.


ziting aak me edit her pics. got two editions.


the original~

edited 1 background veri crooked and horrible hor.

edited version two. i onli edited the background. nuthin done to hte face. footprints in her hart. =x