my bdae

yea. its my bdae todae. and i'm not hapi at all. i had a completely bad dae ytd and its gonna be bad for todae too. why my life is so fcuked up? its my dae? no special treatment? i dun expect alot lor. sigh. hapiness was neber meant to be mine in e first place. god was jus playin a prank on me. by lettin be hapi for a moment tinkin dat everitin is gonna be fine from den. i guess i'm bein too naive. seein people arnd me treatin me so gud. all so shock why am i unhapie on my bdae. i find myself still a lil xing fu bahx. why mus i alwaes be soft hearted? i wan and i need to protect myself lor. i did wadever i cud. i try wadever i cud. i gib wadever i cud. wad i got in return was tears; loneliness. i'm so afraid of bein sad. but i've gotten a lil numb wif tt. am i gonna continue walkin my miserable lyfe. i'm feelin so painful everiwhere. my heart injured till plaster oso canot stop the bleed le lahx! sigh. i wan more care and concern. don these tings cum out naturallie? why isit so hard for me to get it from him. not even a bdae wish. hahahaaasx. i'm so god damn pathetic. i wonder if he feels bad for ytd? even ting feels a lil bad lor. all i wan is simple lurfe. seein people arnd me and couple on streets all so xing fu. wahs. zzzz.


when i reach tis point. he came to tok to me? omg. a simple msg reali make me feel better lor. thanksx everione hu tried to cheer me up. thanksx ting for accompanyin me las nite. bdae sms champion~ 1st is jane! *clap clap* lame -.-" hahassx. shockin 2nd is kelvin!! 3rd is elson~ 4th veri xia dao! is john. me and him ji tao no contact le lor. touched sia. 5th is merry xiao jie. den is ziting. veri lame cuz she sit beside me nia. den is nelson~ den is shawn~ den is jing yong a net fren. den is marky oso a net fren. den is xinyi! surprisingly qihao. more surprisingly kah kian! no more liaox. meiqian made a cor las nite. got xim lahx! he oso din sms me. neither he wish me verbally. oso din treat me veri gud. practically its jus normal dae to him. hahahax. i lurfe shawn and merry's smses. cuz dey wish me prettier. LOL! i lame lahx. =x well. thanksx all! i hope tml is a veri fun dae~ smuarksx~ hApPie bUrFdaE tOo mIi~~

*todae is reserved for him but he make my dae blank. tts great. thanksx ting for tryin to fill up my empty holes.