bloody arsehole

i feel so upset man
with my 'beloved' brother
not i wanna be very bad and say lo
he is reali fcukin useless
not say totally useless
he jus cant be bothered
he might be useful
but its when he's outside
i never reali see any contributions done to the family
i oso didnt have any contributions
but at least i dun dig holes
i dun wanna go into details
but he reali suck like nobody business
i used to feel proud havin this brother in the past
but ever since 2 yrs ago
i reali feel ashamed man
i oredi try to do everything myself
he jus need to make a cor oso like wan his lifE?
wad a fcuker
anyway when i complained to my mum
she oso have no reaction
so forget it
he better not ask me to help him anythin
it wun be possible
he wanna make things difficult for me
can. but he better hope he wudnt require my help in his life
25 yr old
taking pocket money, transportation money and hp bills money
no financial contributions to the familie
i'm 20 tis yr
dyin soon cuz i'm jobless now
but i dun take pocket and transportation money
and i pay my own hp bills
compare to him . i'm proud of myself
but anyway my mum is willing to gib
so i dun see a problem dere
so i ask her not to alwaes complain to me
cuz is both willing party . bless her.
but i reali have a irresponsible useless freak in my house
i reali canot take it sometimes.
if i can settle this thing myself
if this account werent under his name
i wudnt have go to him.
such an asshole
wad have i done in my pastlife to have all unfortunates events in ma life.

but thanks to my bf
he is alwaes helpin me in alot of stuff

anyone wanna introduce me a job
i'm kinda dyin
cuz so many people bdae
especially close ones which requires plenty of cash
and my money i hav nw
need to pull through a long time till i get a job
god bless me