our story ended on 30 of august.
lasted for 2 yr 7 months
how do i feel?
sad? of cuz
lonely? obviously
heartbroken? definitely.
i feel so proud of myself for handling it so well
i stand up straight and carry on with my life
its jus tt my life is kinda hard to manage
hard to survive with tis little money
hard to survive with tis amount of stress
i'm doing all i can..
and i reali feel kinda suffocated
so i am now letting it out
i tink i've grown up quite abit
being able to handle stuff by myself
i need to build up some confidence now
so many tings to do everyday
where are all my time for myself?
perhaps i wasted too much time in the past
and now i have to make it up
i hope i graduate soon ?
it hurts to see my mum working so hard
it hurts to see her coming home so late every night
it hurts to see her hair dropping so much
it hurts to see her sleeping so little
it hurts to see her saving all the money she could
i'm pissed to see my brothers doing nothing each day
i'm pissed to see him on-ing his computer 24hrs a day
i'm pissed to see him always askin my mom to top up his card
i'm pissed to see that he has no intention to do anything at all
there are so many things making me feel so bad
its more dan wad i have to make me feel good
i wanna improve our family situation ASAP
mummy is 51 already
brother is 25 already
i got nothing to say
mayb tis is why i dun have extra energy to think abt my own stuff?
to feel sad and heartbroken?
birthday is coming soon
1st wish : i hope our family situation improve, brother pls faster find a job
2nd wish : to fly and soar in my studies
3rd wish : more love from family and friends
all my wishes will come true
cuz i put in so much effort in whatever i'm doing now
i strongly believe it will all come true
shud i continue to sing?
i cant.
i dun have the time to commit
cant afford to commit
my dream.
have to pause for awhile
as for now
all that matters is my studies and my mum
pls god, stop my mum's suffering
she have had enough if u notice
